the film, Tracing Cowboys, written by and starring Sacha Grunpeter and myself, screened in LA last night.
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(thanks to all who came out and supported! much much appreciated!!! i love u, friends!)
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best facebook message EVER to find in your inbox on a monday morning:
"Megan, I love hearing about your movies. I am absolutely fascinated
with it all. You have been so successful with everything that you
do.. Your family is the cutest and I love to see how strong your
family seems to be. It just seems like I see so many people don't seem
to make their family the center of their life as it should be.. You
do.. Great for you and your family. I can't imagine what I am missing
not having a loving husband and a child and maybe still one day I will
but I just love that you are so appreciative of what some people treat
as just a given..
Good luck with the movie. The trailer is so intriguing and I hope that I do get to see it. You look stunning of course.
Wish you the best with it..
Mandy"
(I know this whole email seems random but I just decided this time to
actually let the person know what I was thinking when I was reading
about what was going on with you instead of just thinking it!)
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i was so moved by this message. mandy is an old friend of mine from highschool, we haven't spoken in forever, and yet... this. this open outreach of love and support... so mandy, i hope this is ok that i posted this publicly, but the way
you so honestly and beautifully expressed yourself was too good to keep
to myself. :)
i share this with you all because this came to me at a time when i am 1. really missing acting, but since having satine, have not been able to pursue it the way i used to. and here is a reminder of appreciation that it is all worth it to have my family... and 2. because there are days when i simply do NOT feel like a success in my life... in many ways, i'm not where i wanted to be. in terms of the acting world, i am a far cry from achieving what i
wanted to achieve from it. acting is hard. art is hard. creating
something (whatever the medium) of worth and value and resonance... is
not easy (and let's not even get into the BUISNESS of acting, which is
it's own beast).
but mandy's message to me held me like a little balm this morning. i know that sounds sentimental and melodramatic, but finding that in my email this morning... it really kinda was! i think we forget how much we hold each other, how much we are responsible for one another, how much power we have to hold one another up, even those we think are standing firm and tall. there's immense power in sharing with others a heartfelt compliment, or to give others a peek into our fears or insecurities. i think it helps to let others see the cracks in the confidence facade. we all need help. we're all connected. we're all in the same predicament -- give or take a
job, a child, a spouse, or maybe even a few (hundred) thousand (or million) dollars. but underneath all of that... we, quite simply... need each other.
this is the real art (and power): the art of living. living from your heart, and sharing yourself with others.
i needed this mandy.
thank you for the inspiration, and the reminder.
xxo